Obedience.

It’s not so much a matter of discipline as it is of motivation, isn’t it? Sure you can force yourself to do something you do not want to do, and train up to make it easier, yet if you actually want to do it, isn’t that totally different? Sometimes I ask myself, why do I do the things I do, even those that are seen as good things? Do I really do them for the right reason – to honour God? Now that I think of it, I doubt so. Isn’t it so much easier to be motivated by the approval of others, especially those we like and admire? Sigh, ease must be the enemy of good.

Habit

What a dangerous thought/idea. That doing something will make it easier to do again. Life is like a game, what constitutes losing? What do I dislike/fear most? Should I fear being far from God? In that case, should I fear sin, since it brings me far from Him? Shouldn’t I avoid it with all my being then? Yet it is so difficult. But of course, where would the satisfaction of winning be without the challenge? Everything that is good comes at a price. Life is a tough, tough game.